Wow ... I haven't written here for over 10 months now. Art must have disappeared in my life, replaced by the job change, fitting into the new environment, market turmoil, and all the headaches that come with this career in finance. Until today ...

When I decided to visit Diller Scofidio + Renfro studio with Guggenheim's YCC program, I had no clue what I was getting into. I invited Adrian along just because I hadn't seen him for quite long and wanted to use this opportunity to catch up.

It was freezing cold this evening. I walked ten blocks to the West side, sobbing over my threatened relationship. But when I stepped into Renfro's studio, the sky opened up in front of my eyes, on top of the west side Manhattan, and erased every piece of sorrow in my mind.

This is it! A setting that appeared for millions of times in my dreams that I was never able to capture. This is it! An architect so full of charm whose presentation turned my world completely upside down. This is it! A perfect marriage between construction and deconstruction, between innovation and practicality, between present and future. Both Adrian and myself grew fascinated with the architects' work and immersed ourselves into their creativity for an hour, an unforgettable hour at this important stage of my life, which re-ignite my desire to pursue this dream of mine. I had tears in my eyes.

Life takes sacrifice. My life is full of sacrifices that lead to bigger purposes that I believed in.

I looked around in the studio. Suddenly I felt that this place was so similar to the trading floor that I work on. Everyone is here to pursue a passion, a passion for something larger than life, a passion sucks in all your energy and devotion, a passion that might take years to materialize, if it ever materializes. But for those who are on this floor, they have no regrets. They are determined to exhange their lives and tears and soul and heart for an ultimate recognition.